Friday, October 19, 2012
Thoughts on Perfection
Perfection. This is by no means a new subject to touch upon when it pertains to motherhood. In fact, I have talked about it a bit before on here.
I overheard a conversation the other day about how people didn't like to read blogs because it gave them an unrealistic expectation on what motherhood is or should be. It made them feel bad about themselves.
When I first started blogging there were definitely a few blogs that I stumbled upon that made everything look so easy. They seemed to have it all. Perfect house, perfect kids, they could whip up a gourmet meal on the spot and were always coming up with neat crafts to do. I am not going to lie and say that it didn't make me feel inadequate or self conscious. It did. Sometimes I still do.
I hope, though, that I am not perceived as a blogger who is looking to "appear" perfect. Because, lets face it, perfection isn't real and ones' idea of perfect can be very far from my version of perfect.
I am not perfect........my life is not perfect. I stumble and I fall a lot. I feel like half the time I do not know what I am doing.
You see snippets of my life here on the blog, not the whole picture. I don't like to dwell on the negative so I highlight the positive, most of the time. This blog is touchstone for me and a way to keep track of my families' life and milestones. It is also a place to sometimes vent my hardships and a place to look for support. I want to focus on the positive events and record those, because, honestly, those are what I want to come back and read one day, years from now. I don't need to post about how much my husband and I bicker, how finances are tight on one income, how I seem to struggle with anxiety and self esteem issues and how I have had a hard time losing my own identity in this whole mothering process. I don't want to remember the days where I am still in pjs at 6:00 pm and have had no shower with toys strewn all over the floor and frozen pizza for dinner, again. Sure, that is part of my life, a big part, if I am being honest. Highlighting mostly the positive things in my life isn't a way to create the illusion of perfection but more of a way for me to really remember and be grateful for all the good that I do have in my life. :)