Those moments that make you stop

Do you ever have those moments where you just stop. 

You look around.

You wonder how you even got here? How did this get to be your life?

I have had a lot of these moments, lately. Not bad....but more reflective, in a sense.

You chart a course early on in your life and have an idea of how you think things are gonna be. But, then life does actually happen and it is harder, different, not what you expected, but so much more than you ever thought it would be.

Did I think I would be married at 22? No. No way. I thought I would be just graduating college and getting ready to go to law school or some sort of grad school. I never even came close.

I thought I would be married around 25, take some time to establish my career and then start having babies around 27 or 28.

Well, here is 28 and I have no degree, no "career" so to speak of and have two babies already.

Would I trade it, for even a second? No. Not even a chance.

My life is so full. So blessed. So much better than I could have ever envisioned. I had no idea what being a mother would do to me or how it would make me feel. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. I revel in this time and am so thankful that I get to be home with my kids.  This is a short season in my life and I want to savor all of it.

Lately, our lives have been full of pain and loss and it seems that all around us people we care for are hurting. It is hard. It has made me question some of my choices and really think about my future.

Do I know what the future will bring for us? No. I know what I hope for. I know what I envision and I am going to try hard to make those hopes and vision come to life.