Friendships have been on my mind a lot lately, in fact for a good long time.
I have come to realize that people I thought would always be in my life, sadly are not, and people who I didn't expect to be in my life are now firmly cemented into it.
Sometimes it is so hard to let go of friendships. I think even harder than letting go of relationships, sometimes. I have had a few friends over the last few years kinda fade out of my life and it has left me wondering what I have done wrong and what I could have done differently.
I realize that people change over time and the things that once bonded you together may not remain anymore. But still, it hurts. I didn't have any "falling outs", per say, but more a gradual loss of friendship.
Do you have that friend where you feel like you try, try and try but it is never reciprocated and eventually you just give up trying?
For awhile, I acted like I didn't care but then I just wondered why? It is hard not to get closure on these things.
Lately, though, I have come to accept the fact that God places certain people in our lives at certain times for specific reasons. I find comfort in that and I know that although, we may not be friends now, that they will always hold a special place in my heart for all the "old times" we shared.
I have been focusing more on the people I do have in my life now and not dwelling on those that I don't anymore. I have a lot of amazing friends that I am so thankful for. I feel like, as you get older you have less and less friends and it is harder "to put yourself out there", so to speak, and make new friends. But, I cherish each and every one that I do have.
Like the saying goes "Quality over quantity". I would rather have a few great friends than a lot of friends who aren't really "there" for me when I need them.