Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I see ME in them

If you didn't already know, I have two kids who are the lights of my life! Everyday is a new adventure and experience with these two. I am so blessed to be a stay at home momma and getting the chance to be present in their early years. Now, that's not to say that this isn't an extremely challenging job. Even more so now that the terrible two's (for Jaxson) are in FULL swing. More often than not, I feel like ripping my hair out. I have had a lot of moments lately where self doubt and feelings of inadequacy have crept up. Obviously this is uncharted territory for me and we are just taking things a day at a time.
I have kinda veered off topic here, though. What I really wanted to say is that even on these challenging days, where I am ready to go back to bed by nine am, is that I can't help but still be amazed at these little beings that my hubby and I have created. I see so much of myself in them that it is downright SCARY!

Now, I have often prided myself in my determination. When I want something I go after it and I go after it with all I have. My children are the same way. I think this is a great quality to posses however when you are 2 and have that much determination you give your mother a run for her money. Perfect example of that was when Kendra wanted up the stairs at my mother's. I will spare you all the details but she found a way after trying and trying. She had to push her small chair up to another larger chair and boost herself up to the shelf which was blocking the stairs and then she attempted shimming down the back of the shelf ( yes I was close by watching... I just had to see how she had done it so I could prevent her from doing it again.... I had already caught her climbing  the stairs once). Jaxson is very determined as well but not to that degree.  He is very sensitive which some of you might have noticed that I can be. Disciplining him when he was younger was so hard because he was so devastated when you told him no. You didn't even have to raise your voice it was merely the tone that set him off. Not anymore, though!
Kendra, on the other hand is a little instigator just like her father. You tell her no and she giggles and smiles. Then she turns right back around and does it again. I will be the first to admit that it is kind of cute and hard not to laugh ( I know I know, I am asking for it) .
There's that mischievous grin

I am a very stubborn individual as is my hubby (makes for some interesting arguments!) Well, all that stubbornness went right into these two! My mom says that until Kendra and Jaxson, she had never seen a child as stubborn as I was (or is) .  Tonight, my parents and step brother were over for dinner. Jax really wanted his "guncle", as he calls him, to come play in his room. Guncle was tired and watching some t.v. He then asked my mom to make guncle come in his room. When that tactic didn't work he simply went to the tv, shut it off and took the remote. Did I mention I can be a little spiteful too?! Ha!

Now, my children did get SOME good qualities from me too. They love to learn.... reading is their favorite activity and I am so proud of that. They are outgoing and seem, even at this young age, to be empathetic and sympathetic toward others. They both seem to love animals and thrive in social environments.  I could go on and on about all the amazing little qualities they have but I will stop here and not continue to bore you..... :)


  1. Hi. I'm a new follower from the blog hop! You have such a beautiful family! :)
    Peace, Stephanie

  2. Your kids are so cute!! Thanks for following me, and I look forward to learning more about you!

  3. your babies are just ADORABLE! I am a new follower via the Thursday Blog Hop and love what I see!

  4. Already a follower but wanted to stop by from the blog hop to say HI and thank you for linking up :) Hope you have a great day!

  5. Thank you for popping by my blog! I'm following you back

  6. ashley, these photos are gorgeous!! i love the mischevious grin pic! and her big hair bows!! i'll tell you a secret - i've bought children's hair bows and flowers for myself! ha! i love them. and maybe someday i'll have a daughter to share them with.
    this was an awesome and touching post.
    i can be SUPER stubborn at times. like you said...determination. i always say i'm more determined than i am stubborn. and you know what, i think the same for you.
    stubborn isn't always such a bad thing.
    you're a rockin mama!! and i admire you. i think it's such a wonderful thing to stay at home with your children. i really think it is a huge blessing. <3
    thursday love to you!

  7. Such a great post. I can so relate. I marvel at my daughter every day, even after a 10 minutes cry fest all because buckled her in the carseat :) new follower.

  8. Oh my gosh, how adorable! Great post. I can't wait to see how our little guy is going to grow in his personality. Glad to find your blog!

  9. Your little sweeties are ADORABLE!!!!

  10. So adorable. I know, isn't it freaky when you look at your child and it's a mini you looking back? Your kids are adorable (and by the sound of it determined!) which will be an awesome quality later in life, but for now, you've just got to deal with it, and teach them to focus their energy on positive things and find constructive outlets for them. Good luck :-)
    Visiting from the hop.

  11. so sweet! i can't wait to be a mama one day :)

    have a wonderful weekend!

  12. A wonderful post Ashley! Thanks so much for joining in on our Tag-Along Thursday Blog Hop, Em

  13. You have such beautiful kiddos! I don't have any kids of my own, but I know that when I do I will feel the same way.

    Love your blog, can't wait to read more!